10.10.07 - 22:17

And you'll begin to wonder why you came

FUCK YOU. You stupid arrogant stuborn little prick. Why I keep trying to help you I will never know. Why anyone should even attempt to help you is beyond me. People fuck up. People fall down. People are not fucking perfect. I never asked you to be. All I've ever expected from you is wha I know you can do and that is the best. I asked because I care. I have an idea where you are and it's not as great as you like to think. I know I don't help it, cause that's where I still am. Why do you think I am trying so hard to stop you from following me? You're not dumb! You just aren't trying! you can't bullshit me on this! And everytime you push me away and turn it against me. Why the fuck do you think I'm trying to help! This isn't what I want! Not for me for you for anybody.. you look back and it's not good.

so I tell you to fuck off.. but I bite my tounge.. because that's not what I want.. but FUCK! I'm gonna beat your head in to try and knock the sense about! And someone says you've gotta make your own mistakes... Maybe you do but that doesn't make it any easier for me.. I have a responsibility to you.. and if you fail I fail.. I don't think you know that.. maybe that's why it pisses me off so much.. because not only do you fail but then I've failed you.. you said before that you'd ask for help that you'd need help.. and that's what I'm trying to do..and no it's not that I don't have faith in you.. for fucks sake if I didn't think you could do it why would I push you? I wouldn't...

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